The End of February....

Good Evening.
​From Sickly Philadelphia....

This is literally the 1st-Post for this month. And even in typing that right now I'm struggling. Heh! Well...?
   I spent from literally the beginning of November last year till the middle of January this year.
   Relearning how to actually be able to run.
   In March I'll be scheduled for a full-spinal x-ray & then a full-spinal MRI & I've been told by My Dayjob that if I'd already had 10-years in instead of 2?
   Then they would have retired Me on full-disability.
   So yes....
   It is THAT BAD.
   To be honest I am thankful that I am the way that I am, MENTALLY, psychologically.
   Because I've known & seen others who have not & do not handle bad news well & especially not long stretches of it.
   For Me...?
   Which I've typed before.
   I map out & move about with as much planning & goal-oriented intentions as possible, thus the reason why I MADE SURE TO LEAVE My PREVIOUS DAYJOB.
   Because IT IS NOT SUITED FOR EXACTLY WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.
   As well as events like the Pandemic....
   I...?
   APPRECIATE.
   The Fact that Friends & Family have acknowledged that my INTENTIONAL MOVEMENTS & DECISION-MAKING, have been proven to pay off & have DEFINITELY HELPED ME WITHSTAND CURRENT EVENTS BOTH ON THE PERSONAL & EMPLOYMENT LEVELS.
   My Never-Ending DRIVE to succeed with My WE3-Work WILL FINALLY GIVE ME THAT SAME STABILITY ON MY PERSONAL FAMILY-LEVEL, which is REALLY WHERE I NEED IT THE MOST.
   However as You already know nothing can be done WITHOUT AT LEAST STABLE, health.
   And I'm once again on that BORDERLINE of complete physical-health COLLAPSE.
   This has been a driving force FOR WHY nothing has been updated here ALL MONTH IN ANY WAY SHAPE FORM AND FASHION.
   Because I simply NEED TO FINISH MY CONCEPT-ARTWORK SO I CAN JUST TYPE AND KEEP TYPING & THEN PUBLISH MY WORK...!
   The Logistics & Background work IS TEDIOUS & AT TIMES ENDLESS, but OH SO ESSENTIAL, it HAS TO BE DONE.
​   And so it has been GETTING DONE.

   I simply have not had the energy nor the health AND THE DESIRE.
   To keep posting SNIPPETS OF INCOMPLETE WORK.
   Not when so much work has been COMPLETED IN OTHER AREAS, like...?
   The LITERAL MAP for where the storylines will take place....

   Where this is simply ONE SECTION.
   Of Nusuvo-Sumarpanga.

   Right now I'm fighting a lymph-node infection, where I'm actually supposed to be IN BED.
   Of course IF I DO NOT DO MY BACK EXERCISES then LAYING FLAT ON MY BACK FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME CAUSES IT TO FLARE UP, hahahahahahaha, irony!
   And yes.
   I typed laughter on My Part.
   Because I am fully-aware, especially in this country I live in.
   That there are other people...?
   Who would literally ALREADY HAVE BEEN REDUCED TO HOMELESSNESS with the string of injuries I've just suffered.
   I've...?
   ENJOYED.
   Being CONFRONTED WITH THE FACTS THAT...?

   I've finally gotten back to LIVING.
   By the Things I SAY & DO.
   In the Process of this particular part of My Life...?
   I have had to LET GO of people I'd rather NOT HAVE, but...?
   THEIR WAY OF DOING THINGS.
​   THEIR WAY OF LIFE...?

   Doesn't mesh with mine.
   Nor the Reality around Us.
​   I have EXPECTATIONS OF MYSELF.
   And for over a decade of My Life I kept trying to "FIT IN", where I had NO BUSINESS DOING THAT.
   With people who simply like to be...?
   PASSENGERS.
   In Life.
   They like to...?
   COMPLAIN ABOUT LIFE.
   AND THEIR LIVES.
   But DON'T WANT TO DO THE NECESSARY WORK TO HONESTLY BETTER THEMSELVES OR THEIR LIVES.
   Unless they can USE SOMEONE ELSE OR A SITUATION-CIRCUMSTANCE, to try to SKIP THE HARD WORK OF ACTUALLY EARNING WHAT THEY THINK THEY SHOULD HAVE.
   And that is why I have also been pushing & NOT POSTING this month.
   Because I am TIRED of constantly PUTTING UP BITS-&-PIECES & I want to get down TO ENTIRE COMPLETED WORKS.
   Is it eagerness or impatience or simply Me being tired of typing about WHAT IS TO COME. And simply NEEDING TO GET TO THAT POINT.
   So...?
   I've been focusing on working.
   I finished another critical concept-art piece yesterday while people kept checking up on Me at the Dayjob to make sure I was "okay".
   And?
   I appreciated that....
   Just need to finish what I started.
​   That's all that matters now....