Good Evening......From Philadelphia.... Finishing out last year was hectic & stressful, but I managed to get through it & thankfully because I'd made the Right Dayjob-choice, I was able to meet all of my bills while missing a month of work in order to deal with a dried out sinus-cavity & nasal-passages due to the cold.
Typing that was a handful, but bottom line, Dayjob-situation was going through some remodeling & while I AM considered ESSENTIAL-PERSONNEL...? Myself & my fellow coworker WERE NOT GIVEN ASSIGNED-AREAS when everybody had to move outta the workplace so it can be remodeled, so...!? With NO ASSIGNED-AREA OF OUR OWN & then the area We were SUPPOSED TO HAVE, getting UNEXPECTEDLY REMODELED AS WELL...!? We had NO PLACE TO BE, except for to PHYSICALLY MOVE FROM LOCATION TO LOCATION, giving up OUR SPACE for "Our Coworkers", WHO'D BEEN ASSIGNED-AREAS IN THE TEMPORARY-TRAILERS THAT THEY WERE WORKING OUT OF, in the End...? I ended up LITERALLY SITTING OUTSIDE. Now...? After everything went south after 2-weeks, where I was reminded by the Emergency-room doctor AND My Primary-care Doctor, that I'm 50+ years old now. So even though My Body used to respond well to working outside AND BEING OUTSIDE over the course of an 8-hour workday, THAT WAS THEN & THIS IS NOW, translation...!? Because of MY AGE. Being outside in the cold caused the cold-temps TO DRY OUT THE INSIDE OF MY NASAL-PASSAGES & SINUS-CAVITY WHILE I WAS NONE THE WISER...! Literally I'm sitting down to eat My Breakfast, planning what I'm gonna do for the Dayjob-shift, and I literally started dripping blood from my nose into my breakfast, which I DID NOT APPRECIATE SINCE I PAID FOR THAT FOOD. So at first I thought it was JUST A NOSEBLEED, however, THANKFULLY, since I HAVE NOT-HAD NOT, had a nosebleed since I was IN MY EARLY-TEENS!?!? I didn't take it lightly & no sooner did I start the NORMAL means of stopping a nosebleed I started BLEEDING LIKE A STUCK-PIG!!!!! Things escalated QUICKLY where I couldn't stop it & the ER-doc & My Primary reminded me that because THE INSIDE OF MY BODY WAS WHAT'D BEEN DRIED OUT, it is NOT THE SAME as when We suffer DRYSKIN ON THE OUTSIDE OF OUR BODIES, because WE KNOW WHAT THAT EXPERIENCE IS LIKE. But when You are talking about SOME INTERNAL PART OF THE BODY HAS BEEN DRIED OUT DUE TO EXPOSURE TO COLD AIR...? It's a COMPLETE DIFFERENT SENSATION, to ME, it felt like My Nose was simply stopped-up & stuffy, but in actuality IT WAS BECAUSE ALL OF THE SKIN HAD BEEN DRIED-UP FROM TWO-WEEKS OF SITTIN OUTSIDE IN THE COLD...! Needless to say IT GOT WORSE where I was bleeding to such an extent that HEAVY-PAPER TOWELS WEREN'T EVEN DOING ANYTHING! So I asked to be taken to the ER & it took DAMN NEAR AN HOUR AFTER GETTING MY NOSE PINCHED FOR THE BLEEDING TO FINALLY STOP...! Then the Questions started by the ER-doc on WHY DID MY DAYJOB HAVE ME SITTING OUT IN THE COLD & then OTHER DAYJOB-MANAGEMENT & PERSONNEL STARTED GRILLIN ME & THEN FINDING OUT WHAT HAPPENED & WHY DID I SIT OUTSIDE & WHY DIDN'T I COMPLAIN & WHY DIDN'T I DEMAND A, No. I'm not gonna fuckin argue with people who KNOW that THEY HAVE NOT DONE THEIR FUCKIN JOBS & then FOR AS LONG AS SHIT IS OKAY, then it's OKAY FOR THEM TO DO WHAT THEY ARE DOING. A NUMBER of people, especially those that drove me to the ER were REALLY WORRIED & I APPRECIATED & STILL APPRECIATE THEIR CONCERN, but then they constantly said "I can't believe You were that calm that whole time, you looked like You WERE BLEEDIN OUT!!!!" This was also another reason why I was SIDELINED & UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING, loss of TOO MUCH BLOOD TOO FAST. I spent A WEEK IN BED SLEEPING! Then I had to BE MINDFUL OF BREATHING THROUGH MY MOUTH AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, had ONE RELAPSE which then EXTENDED MY SICK-TIME & I was BACK IN THE BED AGAIN! Then having to take nasal-sprays TO RESTORE THE MOISTURE IN MY NOSE & SINUS-CAVITY! And even as I am typing this it was BEYOND REAL INTERESTING TO ME, as They were driving Me to the ER when all of this happened that I was losing too much blood too fast & it made me smile at the Irony that I MIGHT ACTUALLY DIE, from a fuckin nosebleed, with all the things that have happened in My Life, a nosebleed, is what might actually kill me, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, getting old, IS A FUCKIN ADVENTURE! And both the ER-doc & My Primary kept saying "You can't just do the things You USED TO DO ANYMORE, you're now OVER 50. You CANNOT just SIT OUTSIDE IN THE COLD & GO ABOUT YOUR WORK & NOT UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR BODY...!? Might not be able to function in that kind of environment anymore." I was OUT. From November INTO THE 1ST-WEEK OF DECEMBER. I had to get MEDICAL-CLEARANCE to return to the Dayjob. And I'm STILL USING NASAL-SPRAYS even as I type this. I LOVE COLD WEATHER & COLD AIR & both doctors made it clear that THOSE DAYS ARE OVER. Even today, had work to do OUTSIDE AT THE DAYJOB, and I had to stop after an hour IN ORDER TO ENSURE NO FLARE-UPS OR FUCK-UPS due to the Fact that My Issue IS INTERNAL & only gives warning signs as if IT IS NASAL-CONGESTION, which is odd-&-annoying, because it CAUSES THE NORMAL REACTION OF WANTING TO BLOW MY NOSE, which of course THEN TRIGGERS THE DRIED OUT NASAL-PASSAGES & SUCH TO THEN HEMMORAGE, which is just a sneaky-ass way of trying to POTENTIALLY KILL ME, hahahahahahaha! AND YES. I LAUGHED. And I laughed because of ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL THE SHIT I'VE BEEN THROUGH IN MY LIFE, where, really...? A fuckin nosebleed tries to fuckin kill me, WHUT!? That's? DISGRACEFUL. It's like, okay, I die from that, get up to the Gates to decide Heaven or Hell & the fuckin person is fuckin laughing at me cuz I fuckin died from a goddamn nosebleed!? Then when They are looking at My Life, it's like "Sooooh? You fought in Race Wars with Whites & didn't die. Fought against Drug-dealers & Nigger-Traitors & didn't die. Only to DIE, cuz of a fuckin nosebleed? HA!" Meanwhile...? My Son turns 22 this month. And...? I still, HAVEN'T SEEN HIM. And that...!? Is why I DID NOT PANIC, when everything happened that day. And that. Is why I didn't die....
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