Sitting here this morning...?
I'm really seeing why so many people simply just give up and quit.
A few days ago?
I went 24hrs straight working.
On this piece of concept artwork for some crit-characters;
While typing this?
Laptop froze and I nearly lost this post.
Tomorrow I'm going to be going over REPLACING this laptop, a Probook 4540s. And we've been together for a LONNNNNNNNNG, time. So long that I didn't know that this series was discontinued, much like My Wireless Keyboard.
And that's he problem.
Even with this Win10 OS put into the bodyframe, has reached its limits regardless.
The new HP-laptop that descends from this line is $1000.
And I'm gonna buy it.
But I see why people quit.
On Their Dreams.
On Their Ideas.
Because it is hard work.
You have to be able to deal with being able to keep pressing forward, even as people you love and care about and respect.
Question just what in thee fuck are you doing...?
And I see now for a lot of people that it is hard for them to deal with.
It can be very lonely.
And you find out real quick whether you can deal with that or not, but also...?
Dealing with the Fact that there is no initial payoff.
There are no IMMEDIATE results.
As I type this?
The Graphics card appears to be on the verge of dying, because the icons on the left-side of My Dashboard for Weebly?
Has Gibberish where the images would be for the options of building a post.
But that's not gonna stop Me from putting up this post right now.
Financial difficulties, in funding WE3 advertising. Paying for the New Website.
That's not going to stop Me from saving the money necessary to pay for what's needed, mind you...?
If I was to simply stop all of this & just focus on being a Dayjobber like 95% of My People do, then...?
Things would quickly "level out".
Could get a new or used car.
Get a better apartment.
Could even accept some of the invitations from the Ladies & start dating again, however...?
It's a short-term fix.
It's a short-term fulfillment.
I'm dead-tired right now while typing this.
But I'm typing this, I'm pushing forward.
Even as I'm typing I'm thinking of My Son.
Looking at the enormous gamble I've already had to undertake to even survive & be here to type this to You in the first place.
I see why so many people quit.
I see why My Former Fiancee quit.
Why My Friends from College, quit.
It's easier to just get the Dayjob.
And leave the heavy-lifting of honestly lookin at "How the fuck do I keep the doors open to this company?" to the owner, the CEO, the CFO, it's easier. To leave it to Them.
Till They fuck it up & You, lose Your Dayjob....
Till you need leave to handle personal-life, real-life issues, but You've got no time left for it.
People tend to remember whatever Their Own Dreams & Goals were only after whatever THEY SETTLED ON, blows up in Their Faces.
I've really been faced with being reminded of who I am and what I'm about, over this last month. And I've been busting My Ass, even injuring myself to a degree. To keep going forward and keep at it. I've been fending off a cold for the last week.
My Rehab for My Wrist got cut-off by the Coon-Doctor.
And My Laptop's been trying to bail on Me, yet again, and thankfully this time I backed shit up and AM PREPARED IN CASE IT DIES LIKE IT DID LAST YEAR.
There is no way I'm quitting now.
There is no way I'm selling-out!
And this "option"?
Is one that derails & destroys a LOT of people.
They've done the Work but can't get the Results that They know THEY SHOULD GET. So They link-up with pre-established entities-&-orgs and get fucked-over.
Or they sell Their Work swearing they'll be able to top what They just sold.
Then finding out the hard way that they fucked up.
You gotta keep pressing forward.
You have to stick to Your Guns and remember that as long as You DON'T GET KILLED OR CAPTURED, guess what!?
You're still in the Fight.
And You can still win the War.
A big part of success is exactly what I have always lived by;
Having Talent is a given but without those 2-critical attributes!?
You can forget it.
This last month-&-a-half has reminded Me of how I am even still alive right now!
And that has kept Me going because it isn't based off My Opinion of Myself but based off of the Facts of the Adversities in Life I have overcome even when My Peers either abandoned ship or worse, on Themselves.
I know exactly how close I am to achieving, My Goals.
And I absolutely will not stop.
Until I do....
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