Good Morning from Philadelphia....
I'm posting late because I've been once again working on concept-artwork, which I'll be posting tonight.
I had a chance to talk to a number of people who flat out told Me that I need to STOP BUYING STANDARD-BUILT laptops, desktops, etc!
And for what it is I AM DOING?
I need to build my own custom desktop.
I really should have THOUGHT OF THAT MYSELF, but?
This is why when the Opportunity came up and I was dealing with people I could trust enough to give me straight answers?
We then had a number of lengthy convo's about the Fact that I need to build a desktop of My Own specifically for graphics-design.
So I was given all the things I need in 8 easy steps;
1) Case (Mid-sized Tower to Full-sized)
3a) MAKE SURE THE PROCESSOR & MOTHERBOARD ARE COMPATIBLE
4) RAM (AT LEAST 16GB)
5) Power Supply (650wtz Minimum)
6) Hard Drive (SSD or HDD)
7) Operating System (64 Bit OEM)
8) GPU (Graphics Card)
So THERE YOU HAVE IT!
We went over some of the specifics directly on what to get and it looks like ANOTHER TRIP TO MICROCENTER IS IN MY FUTURE WITHIN THE NEXT 90-DAYS.
What everyone talked about IS THE FACT that since I draw everything by hand?
It takes Me ENTIRELY TOO LONG TO GET SHIT DONE!
Which it unfortunately does.
And while EVERYONE LOVES MOST OF WHAT I DRAW...?
ARE CONCEPT-ARTWORK FOR THE CHARACTERS WITHIN MY STORYVERSE!
Which is why having so much of My Time being EATEN UP DRAWING THE CHARACTERS, means LOW-TO-NO TIME BEING DONE WRITING THE STORIES, which is a PROBLEM.
Where once again...?
A couple of the people I spoke with.
Forgot that I am actually A WRITER, first.
Not a quote-unquote, artist, first.
Especially moving at THIS SNAILS FUCKIN PACE OF PRODUCTION.
One of the things they ESPECIALLY ALL SAID WAS THE FACT THAT "They'd love to see MY ARTWORK continue to be done IN PENCIL AND EVEN INKED, maybe, BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY!?!?!?"
Using graphic-design programs ON IT AFTERWARDS.
I got nothing.
I don't shit about shit when it comes to all this fuckin "graphic-arts programs".
So aside from simple shit like using an old Photoshop Program that I had on My Old Tower from literally the late-2000's, which, as I typed before, was stolen by the Slumlady-n-Slumlord once I found out they WEREN'T LEGITIMATE RENTERS.
Is some of what I was able to produce using that:
Simple lens-flare shit.
Some basic fuckin around with colors and more lens-flare type fuckery....
I still got plenty of shit floating randomly around the internet that I may or may not ever comeback around and pick back up on or compile and do...?
"Something with it".
I still can't find all of those Roma Victrix stories I did, which is a shame, in a way.
I went on ahead and was actually talking to Youngest Brother and then pulled out the various composition-books that actually CONTAIN SHORT-STORIES AND INFORMATION ON SOME OF THE CHARACTERS I'M USING FOR THE WE3-STORYVERSE.
But he was shocked when he kept seeing that each time, shit got cut short, because I was FUCKIN AROUND WITH BULLSHITTERS.
Which is why now?
I have NO PATIENCE NOR TOLERANCE.
For Bullshit and the Bullshitters who bring the Bullshit.
I don't have enough time in the day as it is.
So then when he kept asking why was THIS PERSON OR THAT PERSON, WILLFULLY DISRUPTING WHAT I WAS DOING...?
And I had to REMIND HIM.
That HE KNEW some of them, annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, that's when he remembered WHO THEY WERE. WHAT THEY USED TO DO AND WHY.
His first reaction was the Fact that all they had to do WAS WHAT THEY'D AGREED TO GET DONE AND SHIT WOULD'VE BEEN SWEET.
Then reminded him, that...?
Shit is never sweet.
So even the words he'd used were a clue into why shit didn't work out with these co-creators and such. And that was when he finally put 2-n-2 together and realized that undermining what was going on WAS ALWAYS THEIR GOAL/S.
IS WHY IT KEPT FUCKIN GOING ON, till I finally realized that NOTHING WAS HAPPENING BY ACCIDENT.
These were White-People WHO'D GROWN UP AND GONE THRU LIFE BEING TOLD HOW TALENTED THEY WERE.
HOW TALENTLESS MY PEOPLE ARE.
And ULTIMATELY ALL OF THAT CAME OUT IN THE WASH.
And that was THE LAST STRAW FOR ME.
I'd been making bad decisions because I was BEING.
I was "going along to get along".
When MY FOOT.
Should've been GETTING RIGHT ALONG INTO THEIR ASSES WHILE I BOOTED THEM OUT OF MY LIFE AND MY BUSINESS!
So that THEY could do whatever the Fuck THEY WANTED TO DO...?
So once I had to pay for My Stupidity I had to HONESTLY.
How and why did I put up with these people and accept the Fact that I'd made TOO MANY CHANGES IN WHO I AM AS A PERSON.
Which ALLOWED FOR.
To disrupt and fuck up, what I was trying to build.
While they lied to My Face on a daily-basis.
Fun-fact was I really had the chance TO SEE.
That in MY YOUNGER YEARS...?
This kind of bullshit DID NOT.
I knew I needed to GET BACK TO BASICS.
Because I'd fucked in LOWERING MY STANDARDS AND MAKING EXCUSES FOR PEOPLE'S BEHAVIORS.
And there is NOTHING TO TYPE ABOUT NOR TALK ABOUT.
Has STARTED TO RETURN TO NORMAL.
People KNEW WHERE THEY STOOD WITH ME AND I MADE SO THEY HAD NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO STAY STRAIGHT-UP WITH ME.
And understand something...?
THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE THROWIN PUNCHES AND BEING VIOLENT.
It means making it clear THROUGH MY ACTIONS AND BEHAVIOR/S, that THIS...?
Is WHO I AM.
I will NOT.
BE CHANGING TO ACCOMMODATE ANYONE THAT I SEE IS ON SOME BULLSHIT.
I've been STEADILY IMPROVING HERE.
I'm going to CONTINUE TO TIGHTEN THINGS UP.
And being able to produce AT A FASTER RATE, will most definitely help....
The Creator's Corner
Is where I will give generalized updates!